Song that brought back too many meaning

for those who hates or de-test christians, take the christianity out and it still apply.. dun worry i not emo.. just seems too nice to forgo in my head only

"Stained Glass Masquerade"

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Broke the habit but...

Broke my 2day of smoke.. but yea.. the force is weak with this young one.. but had a great day of fun.. haha
Cousin time out and boy dope sia.
good food, good company with Jeannet and her bf.. hope i din spell that wrong Jean.. and sorry for forgetting your bf name..
oh and lan for dota after so long. VS still not bad ar... managed to farm all my items up in time.. but had to carry gem. damn sickening.. stupid SA.. lol
got owned by bots in BF2.. lol.. something i would really say i noob at.. lol.. step on ppl open mine sia.. lol
Oh Esplanade was having hang out with friends.. classics from the 70s and 80, include fly me to the moon, quando quando quando and others.. full crowd sia.. and a big group of screaming 13-17f fans.. lol
Found the dopest cigs in SG currently.. KENT.. dun believe go 7-11 and get the NEW packaging of KENT neo.. and exhale through your nose.. damn dope!! silky smooth.. lol- and no lingering taste.. haha
ok time for you all to check other blog.. sorry no re-link yet.. think is highly unnecessary. cuz ppl who visit my blog is like little..PLUS!! i can link your link back to your blog.. haha

Napfa Results

well well. final moment of truth.. napfa.. in my opinion not so well done..
sit-up- do to 44 then slack til 51 reps, too bored.. lol-5pts
sit and reach- hit 51 first try but i say like slanted the piece so re-take at 49cm-5 pts
standing broad-jump-252 then 270 but 2nd try mats shift.. sighs- 5pts
pull-ups- slack then do to 1 then drop.. dun even feel like struggling-5pts
shuttle run-slippery floor, making my worse timing in all my years of napfa, 10.6 on 2nd try- 2pts
2.4k-dunno how slow i ran..but confirm 11 min plus also.. cuz got no stamina, came in 7th.. sighs-2 pt
total- napfa silver onli.. sighs

Gossip Girl

Somehow after watching that show.. i find a new way to blog.. lol.. but for those who watch.. i try not to blog in that manner.. so bear with me on this article.. lol

Spotted E at Sch gg to emp.. guessed meeting S then. seems quite well dressed as a person today, seemingly have some stuff on, either playnow or hossan leong..hmmm..
Spotted E smoking out to eat, move on later to argora, definitely Playnow. seemingly had a great time i see.
Spotted Stampy beheaded in 3 diff colours, purple seems non original to the actual one, but black is nice.
Somehow black seems to made the owner of it sad, hopefully cleared it up tmr..
E went back and seemingly got MF.. hope shit wun happen then on issues E dun need now..
E adventure ends for today, hopefully something more fulfilling tmr.. AD seems to be missing.. probably partying on his 2nd performance.
later..
XOXO
Gossip GIrl

Change of plans.. and possibly blog add

Hey.. seemingly my new post has been a more cheerful one.. so expect it to somewhat stay this way.. ok big news.. i am no longer be a cheerleader by trait from this post on.. thus destroying my plan to gain strength which also destroy the reputation of a gym rat.. thus most likely changing add.. things have changed.. and somehow i got to talk it in my stride and as a man.. i must know that strength is definitely my number 1 contender of weakness in Spectrum and also somehow seems like i am an outcast.. so no point staying right.. i doubt they will read anyway.. but wateva it is .. time to move on again i guessed.. this last stretch in RP year has been a time of move on.. oh well..

long awaiting

back from dunno where.. blogging awhile again.. yea

oK.. 5 things on the agenda.. hope you peps understand.. yea

1) Shitty weird shit this passed few days on trying to change a certain lifestyle.. not wanting to put ppl on pedestal again.. yea.. been doing that since sec 2 and still live now to regret.. maybe its my character? who knows..

2) someone is with someone and that just made me slightly sad.. but wish the someone all the best..

3) viceroy sucks.. maybe a road of redemption to quitting

4) thinking of quitting cheer.. hope the final verdict comes to mind soon...

5) watched so much shows and found out a different thing.. a whole new perspective on man-female relationship and the shit that we can put ourselves through and yet still find happiness.. if the movies are just fantasy.. then i rather stay there..

oh yea.. lastly.. happy birthday to my 18 yr old cousin claressa on being 2 days older than 18.. lol.. great time of drink, smoke, ktv and talk.. now currently quite broke..

Woken Up, packing up

Something struck me.. what am i living for?
i know i will put a sensitive topic but somehow i know i met some objective by going through a painful de-tour.. a de-tour i have yet to recover from..
But it has given me a look on perfect love.. What is it?
Is being so patient with everything, not saying stuff just when u think it is prejudice, but rather wait it out, listen to everything, and whatever you do refuse to comment on touchy issues.
Perfect love is also supressing or releasing the stored up emotions so much in such a great extend it feels better, without affecting the people around you..
today no one was there.. no one.. but then it was also a time for me to know the truth... not in the face kind.. but quite inferred for me to know that its time. time to take flight and pack up.. time to leave..

Too much reasons to be sad

But.... i will stay happy
cuz it is the thing that will change me
be sad n smoke more?
be happy cant smoke more:)
logic actually but somehow took so long to hit my brain

Yes u heard it again.. i am trying to quit again
this time.. trying really hard
hitting gym, get games on PSP
buy sweets, and watever i can eat

then there is the most infamous question
Moved on already
Not yet.. but will just sit for time out
if it happens, it happens
if it dun, then ns lo.. yea

IYP pls go well
i dun want to have nothing to show again..
film hard core tmr yes

Not slping yet.. someone sad..