FUCK it.. wats the point

Whats the point when u keep doing the best at your part and nothing comes back, not even a sense of gratitude, not even a sense of humility.. i tolerated enuf, one more shot and your out.. all of your.. trust me on that!

Quit NOW!

Quitting starts today.. i am sick and tired of coughing so much, so much phlegm, the ashy taste in my mouth and the price of cigs and places to smoke next year.. once and for all.. i hate the quit then smoke then go back to quit to fail again.. ARGH!!
today lost the battles loads of times.. 9 sticks.. omg.

Long lost ambition re-discovered

Yesterday after slacking at coffee shop till no tmr, went to gym.. yea.. not alone though.. iggy wanted to go. lol.. sry to JC for borrowing your shoes for gym.. but i dun think i can pull it off like u do.. haha
did a streneous sets of exercise.. do not try this without a spotter or an experienced lifter..
Power clean with shoulder press; 4 sets 8 reps each
deadlifts; 4 sets 6 reps each
Squats; 4 sets of 10 each
and later iggy want to do bench.. wow.. haha
bench; 3 sets of 10 or less..
then damn shack alrdy.. go back do fyp.. which was like 10 min.. lol
thx juraimi for the inconvenient timeslot we came at, but it was worth it.. Security room checked man.. lock and loaded TaNak Production..

Love Once, Love Deep

When u came, i din noe
if it meant anything at all
First sight, something came
and i smiled not on the surface

We hit off, talked somemore
it didn't hurt that we had interests apart
we compromised, made time and yet
it still all fell apart

I told myself when i was young
crushes happens everywhere
but when i see a crush that reciprocrate
then i will leap right in both eyes closed

To love once to love hard
to give all i ever am and made to be
In with no regrets but here i stand
regretting why even we end up this way

The beautiful dream, the paradise
Whats left of it are thorns
thorns on a heart which pounds for u
only to realise the fire within u has faded

A heart which pounds nite and day
Finding someone else to fill the void
But everytime it reaches that
i take a knife and stab again

Friends should not bring friends down
they should keep bringing them up
and be there when they fall
But i dun want to fall

Everytime the void fails to be filled
Life fails to have a meaning
Life stops, not for me, but for the inner me
Life came when u were around, it stopped when u left

Existence is what i lived right now
dunno how long that will last
seeing it in this dark cave of mine
i am heading for a bottomless pit

"Friends"

Friends (dictionary)
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

2.	a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.

3.	a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?

a simple question, do we even lift up to the first 2 meanings of friend, usually we just lift up to the 3rd one and forget all about real people having problems..

CIG is my best friend as of now.. doesn't seem to disappoint me yet.

!@#$%^&*()_+

Whats the point.. it comes down to one thing, you dun care FULL STOP!!

Crazed Fanatic

Have i really changed.. i hope not.. even for the better, i dun want.. cuz better in man's perspective means harden up.. why be.. throw myself out there again. only not now.. after NS then.. lol

Disneyland in HK sucks.. Claressa word and reputation on it.. she visited all the DL in the world.. so yea.. take her word for it..

sucky lesson today.. not my idea, yet forced to present.. sighs..

filming, shy like fuck.. omg.. thanks to the 2 beau that MJ got..

sushi was also awkward still.. damn shy..

hopefully helped WG alrdy. hope things turns out better..

Lastly.. ppl pls dun be late tmr!!!!

Interested in New Song from the Academy

The MV very Chic flick.. lol.. Ryan all your fault ar!

One song about a girl
I can't breathe when I'm around her
I'll wait here everyday
In case she'll scratch the surface
She'll never notice

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

Last night I knew what to say
But you weren't there to hear it
These lines so well rehearsed
Tongue tied and overloaded
You never notice

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

I'm not in love
This is not your song
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

To be loved, to be loved
What more could you ask for
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone wants
To be loved, to be loved
What more could you ask for
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone...

Smitten yet again...

IT came again like it did the last time, dropped on my lap and started feeling warm.. but i guessed its not time yet.. maybe not ever to jump rite in again.. for a friend for myself its really not supposed to be done. Life's like that, deal with it, sometimes life through you a curve ball, you got to know how to bat it or u end up on the bench, watching life pass by again..
Time has faded, moments changed, even routines has changed, wat started out pure and genuine turns out cold and bitter, and even the person whos' responsible dunno about it.. haiz.. life is cool, life is cruel, but wateva it is, a man must be a man. a man must be unshaken by his belief, the reluctance for him to change, even when he knows he did wrong shows how steadfast he is, how grounded he is. my first wall has fallen, how much more times must walls fall for me to realise not everyone is willing give the time, commitment and care i can give, its a slot-machine, its a gamble, u never know what u get back then, so thus lotsa ppl pull out after being burnt, will i?